Dear self,
These past 19 years and four months have been very interesting, there are many things you have done, many things you wish you would've done but didn't because you were too afraid to take chances, and things you will do, but don't know what they are yet. I only have these things to say to you…..
1. You were born to a loving family whether you think so or not. Your parents love you and have raised you to be the person you are as of this moment.
2. You were born with a disorder that makes you very unique and you've never really met anyone else in person besides your mom and sister with this same disorder( p.s. online is not the same as meeting in person)
3. You have talked to someone from Australia over social media and had a crush on him for about five seconds because he sounded cute.
4. You have only gone on one "date" in these 19 years and four months, hopefully when you look back on this, that number will have changed.
5. You need to not be afraid of things, you are a leader, not a follower, you are just learning this about yourself.
6. Above all, you are at this point learning to put God first, others second, and yourself last even though you have mostly put others first your entire life.
7. you are not fat, you are not ugly, you are not a creature who needs to disappear from all time and space. you are unique.
8. You will be having jaw surgery, you don't know the date of your jaw surgery but have been told it will possibly be in October, be aware this might change since its near the end of July.
9. High school was a learning process, it was fun and challenging, you have some regrets, but it will not define you, your past does not define you.
I want to go on this journey so I can look back and not have regrets. this is a really lame post, but whatever, nobodies going to read this, only me.
Love, Me.
