Thursday, February 2, 2017

Ceramics, 12 bowls...well...er....um...more like 16 bowls and an extruder.

Lets just say by this point in time I am a little tired of making bowls, but I am getting a little better at it, if you can call turning one ball of clay into one wet ball of mush and two of my bowls not being good enough, though practice makes progress,not perfect. I will get this.
                                                                                      
First bowls I made in ceramics last semester Fall 2016



The first assignment this semester was to make 12 bowls, I made 12 bowls,well I made 10 good bowls and two alright bowls. The next assignment involves an extruder,which is a mechanism you push clay through to make shapes like a tube. this one takes longer to do. now I have to make 4 bowls in which I will then trim the bottom to make them look nice.

Ceramics is fun and a lot of work,but if you enjoy it,its worth it.










Sunday, January 22, 2017

Removing a toxic person from your life

Image result for toxic relationship quotesI had to do a hard thing. I hated the fact that I had to do this,but the person left me no choice but to before they could hurt me again.

Don't let someone say lies about you, don't let someone keep you from what you need to focus on, don't let anyone control you. Nobody is worth your tears. Yes we cry and then we move on.  Moving on is the important thing to do because if you don't move on,you'll never grow.

Life likes to teach hard lessons and I never thought I would have to learn this one. I figured if I did, I'd learn it after a breakup with my first serious boyfriend.

I realize its been 2 years since my last post,but I felt like I needed to get this off my chest. Honestly I felt like a huge jerk five minutes after I removed them from my life. I felt like an even bigger jerk after they sent me a message apologizing and asking to be friends again and I said I accepted their apology, forgave them and am moving on, not being friends with them anymore. After about a couple hours though, I felt this huge weight lifted off my shoulders, almost like the stress of having to deal with that person was getting too heavy and I was starting to crumble. I am a nice person, maybe too nice sometimes,but I will not be played with like a toy that you only play with when you need it. I keep secrets, I don't tell if you don't want me too unless you're thinking about something dangerous like suicide. I'm still struggling a little after the while blowup and I don''t get over it just like that, like the person wanted me to the first time they did something. I mean would you get over it just like that if you found out one of your closest friends was saying untrue things behind your back because you made them mad over a miscommunication? regardless, we got over that, we moved on, then more drama happened,they got mad again and I got really stressed and mad as well. I was getting to the point where I would've been perfectly fine if the world ended so I wouldn't be so sad and stressed out.  Don't let anybody make you feel this way, even over something so stupid that the smallest thing brings out who they truly are as a person.

That's it. this is the most depressing thing I've written yet, but here it is. have a goodnight everybody.

Friday, March 6, 2015

March 6th,2015 at 3:06pm

I turn 20 in 13 hours 52 minutes and counting, which means at 5:00am on March 7th,2015.......teenager is no longer a word in my vocabulary to describe myself. Only took 7 years to accomplish that.


On the bright side I became addicted to possibly one of the most ridiculous yet awesome shows in the history of ever...... Pretty Little Liars............................. I so blame Netflix and everybody else who is slightly obsessed with it.

Saturday, February 21, 2015

Turning 20,and not knowing what to do or how to feel



In 2 weeks,on March 7th, I shall be turning 20.... I do not know how to feel about this.



The thing about me and my birthday is, I take my birthday seriously, I take it as the day I started to exist as a person. its stupid,crazy and mostly nobody else takes it as seriously as I do. I literally started counting down the months to my birthday when I could learn to count and how to tell time and figure all of that out on my own.

nobody will care about this post,this is just for me mainly to get my thoughts out.



I'm not even sure what to do on my actual birthday besides go see a movie and probably be working that night as well.

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Update....


 Well its 2015 everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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Life has been okay, I've recently begun taking voicee lessons again because I wanted to get adjusted to this new bite and mouth I have,but I also wanted to work on my singing, I'm not a bad singer,I'm a good singer,or what I've been told, I just have to work on my volume and my confidence.

I'm what you would call a closet singer who wants to come out of the closet. Bad metaphor,but you get it right?

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Anyways..... I like to sing,but I'm usually too quiet,not breathing right or not confident enough,so voice lessons will help me with that I think, I also think I just need to get over the fear of failure, I mean in life you have to make mistakes otherwise you're perfect and nobody but God is perfect.


And I really need to kind of get a life, I mean I have a life,it just got put on hold with the jaw surgery,so I've basically been glued to netflix and the internet for three straight months which has led to this feeling......




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   So yeah....... As soon as I'm done learning this song I've kind of known for a few years,I'm going to ask if I could learn like one or two,or a billion songs that kind of forces me to be expressive and confident and basically like me when I'm my normal awkward self. Life has something in store for me,but I'm working on myself for right now and getting back into life. I went back to work after three months which was really nice,granted I practically crashed in my bed almost immediately as I got home from my first night back at work,but it was all worth it.

I'm not really sure what to say now,so um yeah.......
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 Goodnight!!!!!!!!





Thursday, November 13, 2014

1....And after the jaw surgery

Sorry its been awhile since I posted,but I had my jaw surgery and am in the recovery process,got my rubber bands put on this week and they are annoying,but I'm adjusting.

1. Be happy,because thats all I really want.

My jaw surgery went well,I don't remember anything between going into the operating room and laying on the bed and waking up like a day later and having the nurse tell me to cross my arms so she could lift me and adjust my body in the hospital bed. so theres a good 12 hours or so that I don't remember of my life this year.


Monday, October 20, 2014

2.....1......Number 2

#2. Go somewhere new and just observe my surroundings, get a feel of the environment and the atmosphere, observe fellow beings in their current habitat in which they act.

Basically I want to go somewhere I've never been before and observe people who I don't know.

Ten days until my jaw surgery and I'm freaking out a little, my friend said to imagine the hospital room like a very intrusive spa,so I'm sure that'll help?