2.....1......Number 2

#2. Go somewhere new and just observe my surroundings, get a feel of the environment and the atmosphere, observe fellow beings in their current habitat in which they act.

Basically I want to go somewhere I've never been before and observe people who I don't know.

Ten days until my jaw surgery and I'm freaking out a little, my friend said to imagine the hospital room like a very intrusive spa,so I'm sure that'll help?

3.....2.....1......Number 3

#3. Reconnect with myself and ultimately not be afraid of failure.

Counting down to October 30th is time consuming,so I'm going to do something a little different with this post. I've been thinking lately and I took out my senior yearbook from high school which was a little over a year ago. I was looking at the quotes from the senior class,as well as a few of the million messages my friends signed in my yearbook and one in particular stuck out and literally hit me in the face with a brick,actually a couple of them did from two really great guys in my senior class,one who is departed now and I don't know if he would mind if I share his quote or not since I can't physically talk to him.

"No matter where you go, Frys, McDonalds, or simply take a walk, just make sure you always go in your best clothes."- Jose

Now I'll share part of the message one friend wrote in my yearbook.... "Hope that, whatever you do, you're happy." -Brenden S.

Now when you're young, you don't really think about your future too much, at least until its three weeks from your high school graduation or the first day of college or even the few moments after you get married,have your first child, or WHATEVER! I think grownups don't follow the general advice that my one friend has said "Whatever you do, you're happy."  It leads to this question in my mind, why aren't we happy everyday unless something great happens to us? When did we get to the point where a piece of technology makes us happier than a childs laughter? When did we start choosing financial gain over personal happiness? When did we start thinking about ourselves more than others?

I'm not sure when, and I'm not going to be cliche and say stop being selfish and start being selfless because I don't know if we know how to do that yet. It made me realize that I've been obsessing and thinking about the future instead of enjoying the moment I'm in now, thinking about how in the world am I going to pay for this when I should just enjoy the look in my dogs eyes when he plays with his food or the joy on my sisters face when she runs to answer the phone or even the sweet look in my parents eyes right before they kiss each other because they love each other so much and have loved each other in the almost 28 years they've been married.

I'm rambling,but I think the real question would be when did we stop enjoying the little things in life? When did we stop being brave and facing our fears wasn't a hard thing to do? I'm not sure what you guys are going to  do after you read this,if anybody does, but I'm going to simply be happy and enjoy the little things in life like the flowers blooming on the cactus in the neighbors front yard. The past is the past, the future is the future,but today is a gift. We only get one chance at life,we live everyday and we die once, unless you just happen to be someone who's cheated death once or twice.

I'm not trying to berrate any of you, I'm just saying maybe we should stop stressing and being grumpy,sleepy,sometimes dopey, needy, dependent on someone else and just be happy for a while.

The tv will be there,the news will almost always be boring or depressing, your cellphones not going to blowup if you don't turn it on, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Pintrest, Tumblir, Snapchat, and all the other social media sites will still be there when you come back, but the moments you waste staring at a computer or tv or your PHONE won't be there for more than a moment. Enjoy life, eat, sleep, talk to your family, they seem nice right?

Just smell the roses and whatever you do, you're happy.

Thats it.

4....3....2....1.......Now with 4

Its 16 days until my jaw surgery and I only have this to say, Butterflies to me are peaceful. Fear can't get in the way of what you want to do, and I did something I wanted to do for awhile,see a butterfly up close.

4. See a butterfly up close without hurting it.

DONE!

I saw many butterflies like this one,but it was cool.

5….4…..3….2….1…….. Lets start with 5.......

Technically its 18 days until October 30th,but I already know I won't be able to sleep the night before it happens, I usually cant sleep very well the night before any surgery,but this time is different. I've never to my knowledge stayed overnight in a hospital before other than after I was born and I sure don't remember that. Fear is a funny thing,its something that keeps us from doing something daring and outrageous. It keeps us saying "what if I fail?" instead of "Who cares if I fail?"

So this is number five on a list of things I want to accomplish before I die

5. Go see the Grand Canyon.

I know its a big hole in the ground that many people either fall to their death into or camp out overnight after riding on a stinky donkey all day, but I still would like to see it, I grew up in the Grand Canyon state having never seen it in person.  That's something I would like to do. Simple as that.

Rainbows-Why are they here?

Why do rainbows exist? Science says its due to the sun shining after the rain falls, the cycle of photosynthesis. The Bible however, says something entirely different.

Everybodys heard of the story of Noahs Ark,God told Noah to build the ark and bring two of every animal on board along with his family as God was going to destroy all the evil things by making it rain for forty days and forty nights. Well after he did that, God made a promise to Noah that he would never flood the Earth to destroy flesh like that as long as the Earth is here, so to show his promise and remember the promise he made, God created a rainbow that would come out of the clouds after every rain. It makes me wonder if God made any other promises that resulted in the beauty of nature? I'm sure I'll find out,but I'm already learning and remembering things from the bible like man is not allowed to eat raw meat. Pretty cool. If you ask me though, I think God just wanted a rainbow to make the sky even more beautiful. Bible challenge Day 2.

100 day Bible challenge

This is day 1 of my 100 day Bible challenge. I am encouraging  myself to read the bible,just bits and pieces over the course of a hundred days to keep myself humble and get better understanding of why things happen in life.

No matter what I will read a few pages of my Bible each day, whether it be five in the morning or ten at night. I am doing this because earlier today I upset my parents,my sister and ultimately I  upset myself and God.                                        

Siblings fight, thats true for all of us who have sisters and brothers, well I hit my sister and she hit me right back, and that made my parents upset,although I'm not sure if they saw her hit me back or not because she started being a drama queen and crying. I did something wrong and apologized to her. But I want to have this not happen again.

So from today at 7:51pm until a hundred days from now which will probably include most of my recovery time from my jaw surgery and my jaw surgery itself, I will read my bible. Thats it.

OH! and my surgery date is officially October 30th,2014. I'll have more later.

How to deal with stress.....or at least how I deal with it

So I know lately I've been excited and just updating when I can about my jaw surgery,to the point where someone would get annoyed with me for talking so much,but there's a whole other side to preparing for anything that's life changing for anyone. The part nobody really likes to deal with or talk about,but lets be honest here...... everybody gets stressed and nervous and fearful and just worriesome.

Everybody has their breaking point where the stress or fear bottles up inside them and one day it just explodes out of them in one form or another,it could be screaming until your face turns red or crying until you can't cry anymore. Well yesterday, my stress bottled up inside me and came out in a bundle of nerves and tears. I controlled it as best as I could considering where I was at the time,but it came out slowly,but surely and I have to say, I saw this little breakdown as a sign that I'm not all brave and totally ready for this as I thought I was,and thats okay,because I will be ready either way for this day that the lord has made. I will rejoice in light of it,even though on the actual day I'll be sleeping mostly and probably in a little pain.

Thats it for now,bye!