March 6th,2015 at 3:06pm

I turn 20 in 13 hours 52 minutes and counting, which means at 5:00am on March 7th,2015.......teenager is no longer a word in my vocabulary to describe myself. Only took 7 years to accomplish that.

On the bright side I became addicted to possibly one of the most ridiculous yet awesome shows in the history of ever...... Pretty Little Liars............................. I so blame Netflix and everybody else who is slightly obsessed with it.

Turning 20,and not knowing what to do or how to feel

In 2 weeks,on March 7th, I shall be turning 20.... I do not know how to feel about this.



The thing about me and my birthday is, I take my birthday seriously, I take it as the day I started to exist as a person. its stupid,crazy and mostly nobody else takes it as seriously as I do. I literally started counting down the months to my birthday when I could learn to count and how to tell time and figure all of that out on my own.

nobody will care about this post,this is just for me mainly to get my thoughts out.



I'm not even sure what to do on my actual birthday besides go see a movie and probably be working that night as well.

Update....

 Well its 2015 everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!







 
Life has been okay, I've recently begun taking voicee lessons again because I wanted to get adjusted to this new bite and mouth I have,but I also wanted to work on my singing, I'm not a bad singer,I'm a good singer,or what I've been told, I just have to work on my volume and my confidence.

I'm what you would call a closet singer who wants to come out of the closet. Bad metaphor,but you get it right?



Anyways..... I like to sing,but I'm usually too quiet,not breathing right or not confident enough,so voice lessons will help me with that I think, I also think I just need to get over the fear of failure, I mean in life you have to make mistakes otherwise you're perfect and nobody but God is perfect.


And I really need to kind of get a life, I mean I have a life,it just got put on hold with the jaw surgery,so I've basically been glued to netflix and the internet for three straight months which has led to this feeling......







   So yeah....... As soon as I'm done learning this song I've kind of known for a few years,I'm going to ask if I could learn like one or two,or a billion songs that kind of forces me to be expressive and confident and basically like me when I'm my normal awkward self. Life has something in store for me,but I'm working on myself for right now and getting back into life. I went back to work after three months which was really nice,granted I practically crashed in my bed almost immediately as I got home from my first night back at work,but it was all worth it.

I'm not really sure what to say now,so um yeah.......

 Goodnight!!!!!!!!