So we have kind of an update on the journey to the jaw surgery, we do have the authorization for the head scan that they need to do in order to make the acrylic model of my head so they can line everything up and figure out what needs to go where so in laments terms they don't screw anything up when they do the actual surgery. Then we still don't have a date for the actual surgery,but the estimated date would be October 29th if everything is done on schedule and smoothed out clear and stuff is done with a good amount of time in between the head scan and the surgery itself plus the other stuff I need to get done like getting all of the hooks into my mouth the day before the actual surgery,keep mentally preparing myself for the surgery, keep brushing and flossing my teeth and stuff. I'm just going to keep praying and be patient. I am hoping that we can get it done before Halloween so that I can be able to chew by Christmas(or somewhat chew) and not have to miss out on turkey and corn and mash potatoes. Plus it would be a good excuse for a spontaneous halloween costume if my face swells up like a balloon and I do somehow end up with bruises everywhere.
Sorry for the rambling, I'm just nervous and excited, I call it nervicted,which is not a word,but is to me. I'm just really hopeful and praying as much as a person could possibly pray, I don't think I've prayed this much about something before. Now if anybody does happen to come across this and think I'm a lunatic or crazy. If anybody who knows me happens to come across this and is thinking "She doesn't need plastic surgery, she's beautiful as is!" Let me say this to you, you are right in that I don't need plastic surgery for cosmetic reasons because I am as beautiful as God made me to be and I know when I die I will leave my body and just be a soul, but I'm not doing this for cosmetic reasons, to tell you the truth, I didn't really want this surgery when I was younger,but everyone told me that I was going to have it. It was my Dad who actually told me what could happen if I don't get the surgery done, which is as I get older theres an increased chance of lockjaw and other stuff just because I do have a slight underdeveloped jaw. I did take a lot of time to think this through(try about 17 years of being told I was going to have it and two years of actually deciding for myself if I want to go through with this or not and actually weighing the pros and cons of this before coming to a decision) oh and I'm on my third year and almost a month in braces which to me means I've had braces about as long as I've had my one and only job. You tell me thats not patience, and I'm staying in braces through the surgery and a little while after it so they can adjust my braces to my newly aligned jaw. I am seriously rambling here. Even more than I usually do. So I guess thats it for right now. This is actually for medical reasons, so i can chew,breathe and overall just have a slightly healthier life. Maybe even get my trach removed?
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